Friday, February 25, 2011

it has been a real long tym since the last moment ak bkk blog
byk bnde ak tglkn
bcoz of only 1 reason
bkn ak sje nk tear myself apart
tp ak cbe buktikn sesuatu pd diri ak
sesuatu yg pnh ditujukn ke ak
mgkn org yg pnh ckp uh,akn phm
atau mgkn jgk x

papepn
act,ak sgt miss kamu sume
terigt tym last day ak kt skul
how i reactd kt 7 of u yg anta ak kt kete
bkn ak xnk kowg anta
2 b honest,mmg ak xmo kowg anta pn
sbb ak pnt da nanges
ak xnk nanges!
tht's the main reason why ak kinda halau kowg
ak tw kowg mst kept askg,
"hajar knape?stl mrh kt kte ke?"
well,hell no!
ak cme xley ngk mke kowg
akn terflash back blek pe yg ak pnh wt kt kowg,
accidentally o not accidentally

ak msh lg xdpt kekuatn utk text some of u
ak xtw nk kte pe pn kt kowg
ak actually cbe nk lari dari kowg
n all diz pelangipetang thing
bt still xley kua sbb de yg tarik ak msk in tht circle blek

ak admt,
im not a good fren 2 some of u
i mean,ALL of u
esp den n aifa n dib n zha2
ak hurt kowg sbb ak nk puaskn ati ak sndri
w/pun aftr tht,
ak blek yg akn terluka
ak selfish
ak tw

kdg2 ak kinda rgrt kowg jmpe ngn ak
lw xjmpe pn mst lg bhgie idop kowg
xd troublemaker
im d spoilt brat kn..
sigh~
totally sori sbb kowg kne knl ngn ak
but then,
who am i nk hlg tkdr Allah

ak bkn cm dib yg sggp wt pape je utk kwn dy
ak cme d selfish me
yg slalu timbulkn mslh dlm pelangipetang
yg xpnh nk pk pnjg lw nk amek decision
yg akn tbe2 brubah dlm sklip mte
n wt kowg xphm who the hell is sitihajarjamil actually
ak tw sbb kdg2
ak pn xphm npe ak wt cm2
cme utk 1 ayt yg pnh diucapkn kat ak
ak tekad utk buktikn
ak bkn mcm yg dy ckp
NOT AT ALL!!

mse abg ak kwen dlu
bkn ak xnk invite kowg
ak xtwla kowg trase o x ble ak jz invite nana je
4 sure trase
ak cme xready utk face kowg
xtw cne seharusnya ak lyn kowg
ppl change
im afraid
kowg da xley time diri ak lg
i cant fulfill othr ppl's expectation

ak hrp kowg phm
coz some things cant jz b revealed
sntiase de risk

ak xtwla lw ak ckp the ily words
acceptd 0 not
yg pst
ak stl mean d ily words
sori 4 things iv done
thx 4 d luv,trust n hope uv gvn me
thx 4 d priceless happy n teary memories
they'r always treasured

til then,
smoge kamu semue bjaye dpt strght A+
bjaye d dnie dan akhirat jgk
pray d same 4 me too



deep from my heart core,
sitihajarjamil

1 comment:

hikayat pelangi petang said...

setiap orang ade pendirian maseng2.
aku faham..
tapi kalau asyik nak mengelak je,masalah xkan selesai.tq sebab maseh bukak blog n confess..maknenye ko still tak lupekan kitorang..
cume ade certain of us,maybe tak boleh terime kenape ko buat kitorang mcm tu..
yg penting semua orang tak perfect.ade buat masalah jugak..maybe ko perlukan mase..yg penting kitorang maseh terime ko sebagai kawan..